After having two very difficult deliveries and two life threatening newborn experiences, I started to relax and enjoy being a mom. So much so that my husband and I decided to have another baby. I was also able to take a leave of absence from work. Thankfully it was an easy delivery without any complications and I even nursed for 13 months! (This was very important to me since I couldn’t nurse my first two). I felt successful and positive.
When my youngest was 3, I decided to return to work. I had the support of my family and my friends. I couldn’t have done this without them. Just when everything was running smoothly about a year later my husband was rushed to the ER and had emergency surgery to save his life. This was extremely traumatic to us all.
I watched as my husband called my children to say goodbye. I kissed my husband for what I thought might be the last time. I had to tell my children who did not understand what was happening that daddy was indeed alive and just needs time away. I had to keep it strong for everyone.
When my husband did come home and recovered, I returned to work. I found myself going through motions and my job was no longer fulfilling. This led me to once again make a change in my life.
I transferred to another position in a different location where I knew no one. I found success and my job is now rewarding.
So I have reinvented myself over and over again. With every obstacle I encounter, I’ve learned to climb over it. I’ve learned to push myself forward when times get difficult. I’ve learned with each pain that I experience there will be more joy to come.
Reinvention is not constant. It is a variable that changes and often otherwise there is no learning outcome.
If there isn’t a struggle there is nothing to overcome, there is no strength, and no perseverance.